All You Want...
Hearts break, tears spill and no one gets to know.
And you remember how you wanted happiness before.
Nothing seems straight, you curse your fate;
Conflicting feelings arise, and you are blinded by your sight.
All you wanted back then was space to sock-slide.
All you want now is less pain to hide.
You remember when the granny next door
Told you when you were ten and four,
To stay true, you have to suffer through.
How you laughed and told her that if it were true,
Gentle folks would not exist, but they do?
You get it now, don't you?
All you wanted back then was an ice cream cone,
All you want now is to not feel alone.
You scorn the fairy tales you once loved,
Who failed to warn you to be tough.
They seem to mock and laugh if you're afraid,
Even when they broke your faith in the first place.
All you wanted back then was the gingerbread hut,
All you want now is to remove this terrible feeling in your gut.
You want to feel the cold drops of rain on your face,
And shed the tears without a trace.
You want to feel the wind on your back,
So you don't hear people say what you lack.
All you wanted back then was another person to impress,
All you want now is one person less who disapproves.
You want to take a shower with the garden hose,
Not another love with the lifespan of a rose.
You want to sit and play with the mud,
For what you are you don't wish to be judged.
You want to cry your heart out and want no one to listen.
You know that if they claim to know all about you, they are mistaken.
All you wanted back then was to know what happens at midnight.
All you want now is someone to say that it's alright.
All you wanted back then was to hug your mom,
Do you even think about how lucky you are to have her now?
She told you she needed you so you always held her hand,
Now you laugh at how silly you were back then.
But, all you wanted back then was to hide your little misdeed,
And all you want now is to be told you are needed.
- Tensai-Teki Kuroneko
