Never Forget the Music

Hey, this is a totally new style, and my longest ever.

Never Forget the Music

My world has come to a standstill,
I don't know where to go.
Everything moves according to a constant drill,
I am tired of submitting to the flow.

Everything that I always do makes me feel bored,
In everything I have never done, I've lost the hope.
Frustrating to not know what the future holds,
There's emptiness behind every closed door.

Everything that I've worked for slips right out of my hands.
Wondering about whether it is another wild goose chase.
Standing in a desert and seeing nothing but endless sands.
Having no confidence, because everything always fails.

The fast paced world chucks you out,
The moment you falter or step away from the crowd,
As if it can't even forgive a moment of doubt.
And once you were fooling around like everything counts.

And asking yourself, when did I grow so cynical?
"The moment I learnt to hide my anguish with a laugh.
When I grasped how to make fun of my heart."
And hearing that answer shatters your foundation.

I tried to fly, but I couldn't escape the shackles...
But I see it darkness closing onto me,
It engulfs me and I can't do anything,
This is all until when I notice...

A broken chandelier beams through the crack,
And I thought I checked all the doors and maps.
Oh yes, I can see it now, it is right in front of me,
Can you feel it too? The dewdrops reflects the light for me to see.

All the walls and the chains turn to ashes,
Because of my confusion, the vision is still a bit hazy,
I see the future in flashes.
It isn't just my imagination, it will stay.

The rains pouring over my face, I exhale a sigh,The puddles, the dampness, the chill, I'll never curse it now.
The smell, the sound, the high, I'll never lose it now.
Oh yeah, you should see it, it's a beautiful view.

Making decisions, yeah, I'm trying to do that!
Facing the stuff, yeah, I am up for the challenge!
I'll try my best to fight, until and unless it comes out right,
'cause I know that I can walk up the distance.

If you hate the silence that haunts the street,
Why don't you sing your own music?
If you're afraid it isn't perfect, know that it'll never be,
But it won't let you slow down that easily.

Oh yeah, never give up, move faster than the world.
Build your pace, and don't let your dreams get away.
And next time your world comes to a standstill,
Don't forget the music.

Never forget singing, never forget the music.

- Tensai-Teki Kuroneko

I have a recording of me singing this with imagined background music, so that the sound never gets lost. Anyways, the sudden mood change was because of listening to my one and only idol, YUI. Pic from Pixabay, so is a public domain image.

Even If You Came Back Today

This is a song, please feel free to contact and make a collaboration or something, because I think it would sound great!

Even If You Came Back Today

I don't want to bring out the past again,
But everything comes out at the very worst of times.
I don't want to spill out everything that's on my mind,
But I really need to say, baby, I remembered you today.
I was in the replay, baby and I didn't want you to stay.

But it didn't go like I thought it would,
I am not curled up on my bed again.
I wouldn't say I didn't miss you,
But the hope has faded away.
'cause I don't think it would ever be the same,
Even if you came back today.

I don't want to know how it'd go if things were different,
But it pains me to know how it all went.
It was the first time I had felt like that...
But things were not getting better, I remember that letter.
And how that tore me up like crumbled paper.

But I don't feel like I think I should,
I don't find you to be needed anymore.
It rained on the tulip everyday,
And now it has withered away,
'cause even if everything was alright,
It would stay ephemeral and wilt every night.

I do know now that everything's fine,
Even I have some people that I can claim mine.
And they haven't left me so far to fend for myself.
I had found you surreal, and it had felt so real,
But it wasn't long flight and I didn't even reach the stratosphere.

And even if you ever miss me this way,
And even if you want it to return to the same way,
I won't stay, cause I'm not okay.
'cause I am sure it would never be okay,
Even if you came back today.

- Tensai-Teki Kuroneko

All You Want...

All You Want...

Hearts break, tears spill and no one gets to know.
And you remember how you wanted happiness before.
Nothing seems straight, you curse your fate;
Conflicting feelings arise, and you are blinded by your sight.
All you wanted back then was space to sock-slide.
All you want now is less pain to hide.

You remember when the granny next door
Told you when you were ten and four,
To stay true, you have to suffer through.
How you laughed and told her that if it were true,
Gentle folks would not exist, but they do?
You get it now, don't you?
All you wanted back then was an ice cream cone,
All you want now is to not feel alone.

You scorn the fairy tales you once loved,
Who failed to warn you to be tough.
They seem to mock and laugh if you're afraid,
Even when they broke your faith in the first place.
All you wanted back then was the gingerbread hut,
All you want now is to remove this terrible feeling in your gut.

You want to feel the cold drops of rain on your face,
And shed the tears without a trace.
You want to feel the wind on your back,
So you don't hear people say what you lack.
All you wanted back then was another person to impress,
All you want now is one person less who disapproves.

You want to take a shower with the garden hose,
Not another love with the lifespan of a rose.
You want to sit and play with the mud,
For what you are you don't wish to be judged.
You want to cry your heart out and want no one to listen.
You know that if they claim to know all about you, they are mistaken.
All you wanted back then was to know what happens at midnight.
All you want now is someone to say that it's alright.

All you wanted back then was to hug your mom,
Do you even think about how lucky you are to have her now?
She told you she needed you so you always held her hand,
Now you laugh at how silly you were back then.
But, all you wanted back then was to hide your little misdeed,
And all you want now is to be told you are needed.

- Tensai-Teki Kuroneko